We went to Chabad Shabbat Dinner, then met Max at the Lone Tree Arts Center for a symphony performance.
The other day Elliot was confused. How could we see Beethoven’s Fifth Symphony if Beethoven is dead?
I have not seen or heard Max for 10 months – since his 8th grade graduation in May 2023. And that was brief and with Karolina. So we have not talked genuinely for maybe a couple of years.
It hurts, I miss him so. He’s almost a man now. He’s as tall as me and his voice is deep. He turns 16 in a couple of weeks. He wants to see the new Dune 2 movie with me so maybe we’ll see each other again in a couple of weeks.
The only problem was that when I dropped Max off at Karolina’s apt building, Elliot cried and cried to go with Max and to be with his mom. Even though it’s my time with Elliot, I let him go. It’s hard for me to accept that sometimes he wants to be with her and Max instead of me, but I accept it and don’t say or do anything to make Elliot feel guilt about it. I don’t tell him how it makes me feel. He’s got it tougher than me, going back and forth. He’s a wonderful, great kid, and I’m fortunate for the time I have with him.
